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[DeadlyNova]

~ by Haley, on Flickr
My mother passed away on Sunday. We were very close, more like sisters or best friends than mother and daughter. Oftentimes I acted more like a mother to her and she acted more like the child. But she was always there for me and put me before anyone else. She had all the same interests as me. I got her into anime and all kinds of other things that she got even more obsessed with than I was. I always called her the 'cool mom' because she walked around in anime T-shirts and covered her walls in anime posters and obsessed over American Horror Story.
~ by Haley, on Flickr
I've chosen to post photos of Eva today. My mother was never financially stable when I was growing up. She quit working to raise me and my sister, but since she was also a single mom and my dad left when I was quite young, money was very difficult and we relied more on my grandparents for money. Because of this I can count the number of real birthday presents she has given me within the last decade on one hand. But that's okay.
~ by Haley, on Flickr
Eva was one of the biggest and most special presents she gave me, nearly nine years ago, for my 14th birthday. She picked her out herself because, in her stock form, she reminded her of me when I was younger. She was upset when I rewigged her and gave her all sorts of changes, but she grew to love her like she is now, too.
I never thought I'd have to bury my mother when I'm only in my early 20's, especially when it happened so suddenly. Nobody was eecting this and my entire life feels like it's falling apart. It still doesn't feel real and I have no idea when I'll be able to even start healing.
~ by Haley, on Flickr
My mother wasn't here long enough, but she was beautiful and she was special and she was a wonderful mother, even though she had her flaws, like we all do. I'm happy she has left me with so many things to remember her by.
Thank you for looking and sorry for the long post. <3